Going Back Again

Ayun, Sa wakas may new post ako, may gusto lang kasi akong ikwento. Well siguro, kung binabasa mo itong blog ko na ito, alam mo na ang halos lahat tungkol saken, wala naman akong itinatago sa mga kaibigan ko lalo na sa VADORZ, second family ko na kasie sila, o kayo. So ayun, hindi lingid sa kaalaman ng marami na i fell in love with this person, ewan tapos kanina, naalala ko lang sya. kahapon kasie sa bus, since magkakasabay kameh nina ARUIN, at TAE, naikwento ko kay TAE yung mga paguusap namin datie. Kaya eto nah naman ako nagddrama. actually dapartnagrereview ako para sa 2nd quiz sa linear algeb bukas eh! Pero ngayon, eto nakikinig sa kantang YOU BELONG WITH ME ni TAYLOR SWIFT. Ang ganda kasi nung vid nakakakilig, kaya after ng post na ito, papanuorin ko yung vid.
Ayun, kanina, naisip ko lang yung mga dating panahon, yung mga panahong naguusap kameh, yung mga panahong hindi ko pah inaamin sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko, well ayun, pero during those times siguro may idea na sya, at humahanga ako sa kanya kasie hindi sya nagalit saken (oh how i wish nagalit sya at minura ako!), pero ayun nga, syempre maiilang sya! Pero ewan, lagi kong sinasabi na Ill be over that feeling, lagi akong naghahanap ng strangers, lahat strangers, ipinagmamalaki ko sa mga GM ko, lahat strangers! Malay ko ba kung sino sila! anu bang malay ko sa buhay nila, eh sya, lahat ng problema nya sinasabi nya saken, lahat ng storya ng buhay nya, lahat ng pinagdadaanan nya, at lagi nyang idinurugtong, SECRET LANG NATEN YUN HUH! ewan, naeenjoy ko ung mga moments na sinasabie nya yan, kasie feel ko pinagkakatiwalaan nya ako, kahit ONLINE FRENDS lang kameh.
WALANG PANSINAN HUH! ako nagpauso nyan, sya naman TALAGANG WALANG PANSINAN HUH?, everytime na magkakasalubong kameh sa corridor at hindi ko sya pinapansin, na parang hangin lang syang dumaan, yan ang sasabihin nya sa text o sa chat. Ewan, sana pinansin ko pala sya dati, meron pang one time BAKIT KA YUMUKO? nakanta kasie aq nun, malay ko bang nagcr sya, pagtalikod ko, nandun sya nakatingin. Minsan, may meeting sila sa room namin, samatalang may praktis dapat ako ng sabayang pagbigkas para sa INTERDALTA, kumanta kameh ni GRACE yung kantang pang STAGE! Ayun tawa sya ng tawa nagalit tuoly si SHELLANIE!
ANG INGAY NUNG NAKABROWN NA JACKET.... UNG NASA LIKOD. Security Guard kasi sya every MONDAY sa room namin, and then yun, nakabrown na jacket ako, katabi si GRACE at si MANEL, lumalamon kameh ng CREAM-O VANILLA, at napatingin aq ng sinabi nya yun, pero hindi ako yun kasie nasa harap ako.
Nung minsan namang mabasa nya yung una kong blog, PARANG AKO YUNG ISA DUN AH PATIE UNG ISA BASTA ANG DAMI! ako naman, O TALAGA? NDIE COINCIDENCE LANG YUN. nanginginig ako habang tinatayp ko yan sa chatbox! Grabeh noh, nung minsan naman sa laptop kameh nagkachat dahil nasira ang PC, OH BAKIT HINDI ORANGE UNG FONT MO? HINDI RIN NABOLD, HINDI RIN NAKA ITALICS? ako naman ABA ALAM HUH! NAKALAPTOP KASIE AQ NGAYON, WAIT BABAGUHIN KOUH! e di ako naman binago ko, so sya rin daw babaguhin nya, sabie ko O ANUNG FONT YAN? sabie naman nya KULAY TEAL ATA TOH, FAVE COLOR KOUH, TAPOS LUCIDA TOH EH, NALIMUTAN KO NA UNG EXACT!
Nakakatuwa noh? pero alam nyo ba, nung 1st year sya at second year ako, naiinis sya saken patie ung isa nyang frend naiinis din saken, kasie panuo buh naman nakaabot sa kanila yung sinabi ko nah, PARANG MAYABANG YANG BATA NA YAN, LAGING NAKACHIN UP. aba malay ko bang makakaabot sa kanya yun, wala naman akong ibang pinagsasabihan, grabeh noh, pero sabie nya OK NA YUN, MATAGAL NA KASIE YUN EH.
Nakakamiss, nung minsan naman invi ako sa kanya, nagbuzz saken si GRACE... HOI INVI KA BA KAI TOOTOOT!? sabi kouh OO, sabi ni GRACE, LOKO KA MAAWA KA NAMAN SA TAO KANINA KA PAH NITO HINIHINTAY! aba malay kong hinihintay nya ako, so nagonline aq sah kanya, BUZZ naman sya kagad, INVI KA BA SAKEN? dugtong na tanuong, sabe ko HINDI NAMAN SA RIZAL LANG AKO AVAILBALE! ayun ang palusot kouh, kinagat naman ata nya, sabie nya NAMISS KITANG KACHAT AH. sinabi nya yan, kahit basahin nyou pah ang archives kouh.
Marami pang masasayang event ang nangyari sameng dalawa through text and chat, pero lahat yun dahil lang sa isang bagay, ginagawa kouh yun dahil MAHAL KO SYA. Samatalang sya, ginagawa nya yun DAHIL KAILANGAN NYA LANG NG KAUSAP. oo, totoo yan, subrang napaiyak ako nang sinabi nya yan, Pero nagsorry naman sya sa text after nyang magsign-out sa YM. Madaling araw na kasie yun, napakadepressing nung gabi na yun! Naiinis ako dapat hindi na ako nakipagchat sa kanya!
Di lang yun ang malungkot, meron pah, nagkasalubong kameh sa Sm, TODO HI ako at CONGRATULATIONS sa kanila, pero wala syang ginawa kundi tingnan lang ako sa MATA! ako naman tumingin na lang din, haaaaay. kung kelan namamansin na ako, sya naman ang may ayaw. Nangyari din yun sa skul nung minsang dumalaw ako, wala lang Nagtinginan lang ulit kameh.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. ayoko nah. gusto ko murahin nya ako, ipahiya nya ako, kasie yun lang ang tanging paraan para matauhan ako.
Grabeh eto ang unang beses kong magkaganito, at ayaw ko nang maulit ito!

PAGMAMAHAL lang naman yung nararamdaman kouh ah!? Bakit kailangang masaktan ako? hindi ko namang ginustong maging gnun din sya para saken ah! Ewan!







........................Parang di mo na ata ako clown ah. -toottoot!

Hithit Buga!

Ayun, so it's been a long time since I have posted something on this blog. So ayun, now that I am back i'm gonna try to update this as regular as I can.
So my first comeback post is about pollution and others. ahikhik. gusto ko kasie hindi lang nakafocus sa isa ung ipopost ko. So ayun, just recently our country, the Philippines, went through a series of typhoons, and within these intervals one of the largest flood-event was recorded. Imangine, almost 70% ng manila ang lumubog. Tama ba? Or was it more than 70%? oh, whatever. so ayun. syempre ang laman ng news about sa mga yun, and then there was this one time na may narinig ako sa news, someone from an environmental agency from our country said, "hindi naman dahilan ng pagbaha at lanslide at pagpuputol ng mga puno at pagsunog ng mga kagubatan eh." IMAGINE? ENVIRONMENTAL AGENCY! Yan ang sinabi!, I mean hello? Kahit nga gradeschool alam na ang ugat ng mga puno ang naghohold ng lupa at nagaabsord ng tubig. Nakakainis di ba? Well di man kayo mainis, ako sobrang naiinis.
Well ayun, I was on the flood myself. Lumusong ako sa baha. Magkasama kameh ni Jop kaso nagkahiwalay din. Grabeh, nakakatakot ang experience. Do you know the movie, WAR OF THE WORLDS? Parang gnun ung pakiramdam. ewan ko kung bakit.
Dati pag inutusan ako ng matatanda na bumuli ng sigarilyo, tatanungin muna ako ng tindera kung para kanino, pag sinabi kong "para po dun sa matanda sa bahay.." pagbibilhan nya ako. Kanina nasa jeep ko nakadungaw sa may bintana, and then may nakita akong bata na nakatayo sa may sidewalk, naninigarilyo. Siguro nasa 13 yrs old pa lang yung bata. Grabeh noh? wala lang.
Kagabi nanuod kameh ng 2012, ang ganda super. kaso medyo ironic, kasie it was stated na umiinit na ang lupa at a gradual level, lalo na dun sa isang lugar, yung lake nga natuyo na eh. kaso ung mga puno, buhay na buhay. Ang weird lang. pero malay nyo mali ako. So ayun, natapos sya at naganap ang POLAR SHIFT. Ayun sa isang research ko, magaganap ang POLAR SHIFT dahil sa pagkawala ng mga MAGNETIC FIELDS ng EARTH, so kapag nawala yun, foreign bodies from the surrounding space are free to enter the Earth's cavity, tapos ayon din sa reserch, titindi ang ultraviolet rays, na masinagan ka lang, mapapaso ka na. Yun ung nasa research ko, at ayon pa dun, maibabalik lang yun after MILLIONS OF YEARS! Pero sa movie ilang buwan lang, okay na ang lahat. Naging PANGAEA ulit ang mga LAND MASS.
Eto pah nagkabalikan ang bida at ang exasawa nya! Ang kapal di ba!? wala lang.
Kanina pala may pasok kameh, kahit LINGGO, ayun groupwork sa TRIGO. Tapos ayun, kagroup ko ung CHINESE kong classmate, first time namin magusap knina. Eto ung pinagusapan namin:

Eigh: do you have a book?

Ngumiti sya at umiling, iniabot ko naman ang libro ko sa kanya.

Eigh: uhm. just choose the numbers you want to answer.

Chanzi: okay

tapos after nyang gamitin yung book ko ibinalik nya at nagthanks sya. Natapos namin ung activity, nagdadaldalan mga kagroup kouh, tanging sya lang ang hindi nakikisali kasie di sya nakakaintindi ng FILIPINO. So ayun, kinausap ko nah lang sya.

Eigh: what's your program?

Chanzi: me?

Eigh: yup.

Chanzi: ME.... how about you?

Eigh: CHE.

Chanzi: oh, ok.

Eigh: what's your name?

Chanzi: Chanzi.

Eigh: uhm, nickname?

Chanzi: Chanzi... how about you?

Eigh: Eigh, you may call me Eigh.

So ayun, lumabas na kameh ng room. May nakita akong binder sa table, kaya binalikan ko, binuksan ko, tapos sa kanya pala yun. Paglabas sakto naman nagkasalubungan kameh. And then ayun,

Eigh: I think you left this.

Chanzi: Oh I threw it.

kinuha nya saken ung binder tapos inilapag sa lamesa sa may hallway. So ayun. nagbye naman sya nung paalis na sya.

ahikhik. sige next time ulit. gusto ko maligo ulit eh!

God Bless!

qUiz Like aRgh!

Way back on highschool, if there was a quiz I'll be cramming on review. But today argh! Quiz is like your life! Most especially the first one, it takes the highest percentage among all the quizzes. arGh. and I am like so dumbfounded after I took the quizzes. argh and on Thursday we still have another quiz. and seven days from now another set of quizzes. argh.
at 10 am this morning during our filipino class we went out, around Intramuros there is a small Lights and sound museum, so as a co-curricular activity we went there, and it features Philippines History most especially the life of doctor Jose Rizal.
argh,. i am so haggard!

BunSen BurNt.

Guess what. ahikhik. we just had our first lab meeting for this term, I mean it was the first lab session to be exact. ahikhik. I enjoyed it a lot specially the part when we have to open the bunsen burners, ahikhik, I was like so scraed at first, but our instructor Engr. Marquez helped us out, I mean me and Kevin, my blockmate. And then we were having computations on the uncertainties on the measurement of different materials on different ways. It was done by Tiffany mostly, Rhona helped out after she finished writing our draft report, she was our secretary that' why. Alvin on the other hand, went back and forth to the electronic balance to measure the mass of different objects, we were quarelling over some few things, but it was all a joke. ahikhik. I enjoyed it, really.
And just this morning as I was preparing, aRgh, by the way I woke up 20 minutes late! Goshie, right? And when I woke up, our KAsambahay just woke up too, so there was prepared food, but it was all right, then after everything I headed to the terminal, there I saw John Paul, a former classmate, then there were heavy traffics all over the place, even on the three alternative routes I know, but there was one the driver used. ahikhik.
Ooooh. I forgot to mention, the other day, as I was walking on the street, there were a few lamppost already so it was not that dark, I was walking around 5 am. Then near the church I saw a white figure playing around the dark on the vacant lot. So I was so scared specially when I got near him, 'cause he looked at me, and I was like shivering! But I saw the church, and my faith just brought life back. aRgh. I remember this story that was posted on a bulletin, it was about a girl who was walking on a dark street late night and she saw a man on the corner end of the dark street she was so cared, she called the name of Jesus, and then nothing happened, she just passed by the man. The next day, she heard a news that on the same place the same night a girl was robbed and raped and was brutally murdered. So she thanked God, she went to the police station and stood as a witness, she gave a sketch of the criminal, and then when the criminal was caught, the officer asked him why he didn't attacked the girl, he innocently answered "I'm not dumb to attack a girl when there were two men beside her!." The end. Well I always shiver when I hear that story.
Uhm, Last Sunday, I had my first reporting on NSTP, good thing they all listen ver well. But before we did that, there was this activity, wherein we'll put papers at our back then asked evryone to write their first impression on it. So it was enjoying knowing the fact that we don't know everyone, well the first impressions I got were : friendly, cute, mr. bright, friendly (and a few more like this.), I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU, and the worst, looks weirdo!
Honestly do I look weird?
The week before, I forgot the day, but I finsihed my lunch early so I went to the next room directly, after a few moments the door opened and a blockmate went in, then she sat at the back part of the room, while I stayed infront, a few moments again while I was answering a tricky question on trigonometry. well at least for me it was tricky, the door opened I looked at it then I saw this foreigner guy he said sssh! So I went back to what I'm doing, then he placed his things at a chair beside me, he asked me a few questions like "what course?" I answered "tigonometry" then he asked again, "what program?" I answered "CHE". Then I reutrned to my work again, then he noticed that I'm having a difficulty figuring it out, so he went at my back and read the question the4n he knelt down, his face is like inches away from mine, and it was so awka=ward, then he thought me a formula, something about intervals, but I know nothing about it, so in the end I still haven't answered the question, but I thanked him foe the effort. Then just the other morning I saw him on the gate of our school, he said hi. ahikhik. By the way he was on the upper class, graduating student, taking up a double degree,DENTISTRY and ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING. ahikhik
But there is this something that's bugging up. I feel so empty and alone. ahikhik. well I miss those times. honestly, I don't need to deny it. Anyways I already said my feelings to the right person, and I still haven't moved on. The same person's name is what I'm writing down on my diary at night.
ahikhik.

anyways.

God BLeSs.

Is Tomorrow a Real Bright Day???

Is tomorrow a real bright day? I wonder... ' Cause if it is then why is there so much threat? If you don't know Global Warming rate is gradually increasing, yah gradually, and it is a great threat to the perpetuation of life not only to the Kingdom Animalia but for the whole system itself. And we all know that we, as humans, are above the intelligence of those other living creatures; the power of reasoning it is, yah it is what made us distinct from the others but practically do we really posses this kind of intelligence? 'Cause if we do, we can't be abusive. Nah, I don't think so, let's just say that, yah we have this intelligence, and we're selfishly seeking for more than what is given and then the outcome? DESTRUCTION, curiosity is a sure nice way for attaining the truth, and then what? Abuse the truth? Haha, people, we are being the beloved daughters and sons of God... that He, if you didn't know had given up His own son to save us. Debt of gratitude? Sure it is large, it is not payable. But what do we do? Instead of treasuring this gifts that God gave us, we, His beloved children are destroying it. But for what? Haha, sure is an easy question. For what else? Nothing else but for power and wealth. Let's just say for example the increasing number of villages and subdivisions only around here in Cavite, they build and build, but do they ever fill the space up? No, because they are so many. And what do they sacrifice? The land, it is given by David Ricardo's Law of Diminishing Marginal Returns, it states nevertheless that if the population continues to expand man will cultivate even the idle lands to support their neccesities in life.
Burning the farm lands is ever famous in this selfish business, and what??? A new production of CO2 ( Carbon Dioxide), CO (Carbon Monoxide) and CH4 (Methane), they are just a few from a number of modern Greenhouse Gases. They may not destroy our Ozone Layer (O3) but they trap heat inside, so the heats are not reflected back into the space. Speaking about O3 do you know that the Chlorofluorocarbons(CFC's), Ozone Layer's mortal enemy, are already banned to developed countries, yah it's true they were banned since 1996, and for third world countries like ours, it'll be banned on 2016. Below is the picture of the hole (navy blue) on our Ozone Layer, and every year from August to December it is broken down. The said hole was found above Antartica on year 1985 by British Scientists Joseph Farman, Brian Gardiner, and Jonathan Shanklin. The image was taken on the year 2005 by the satellite Aura. Just come to think of it, this Ozone Layer protects us from too much UV Rays from the sun, and still with this Ozone Layer too much UV Rays exposure to our skin (most specially to the white people) may be a cause for skin cancer. What more shall the UV Rays bring to our life if this Ozone Layer is just a memory?
When shall all of us wake up to the truth? Are we bringing the "to see is to believe" motto in our life? Because if we do, then there is no more future for us, there's no life waiting for the next generations. Life is beautiful, they said and I believe it, but if this life full of destruction is beautiful already, what more shall a life of peace and conservation shall be???
HUMANS! Wake up, the fact is ours to see, the sin shall us to be burdened upon.



God BLeSs.



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